My Children, They Were Yours First, Lord.

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One of the most difficult things for a parent or mom, like myself, is to let go of their children (and grandchildren) no matter their age. I don’t know about the Max Lucado book, but the quote speaks volumes to me today. I pray and say they are Yours Lord, then at times, POOF! I need to be reminded again to SURRENDER them to Him. I need to fully TRUST the Lord Jesus for my kids. They were His to begin with. Jesus WILL TAKE CARE OF THEM NO MATTER WHAT! They are still His children!

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil.

Will they get hurt? Yes! And sometimes I won’t be able to fix their hurts. Skinned knees, elbows, broken bones or deep gashes needing casts or stitches are easy and a no brainer. Life’s choices and situations….. You know I’m a mom who would like to fix and help my kids no matter what. Also at times when they don’t want it OR when I shouldn’t “lend a helping hand.” It is a very hard thing to do. It is hard making decisions and protecting our children. I am so glad I have a wonderful husband and daddy who has been there to help in more ways than I can not count and there are not enough thank you’s to say and express to/for him helping raise our three kids.

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When they are young we want to put a bubble around them so NOTHING touches them. Sad to say, try with all you might, it is not going to happen. We might achieve a lot in doing this, but life and THINGS happen. Something always will. I have said time and time again, “as long as I have control over them, I will do my best to do what ever it takes to control their atmosphere.” Commendable I would say. But I was wrong in so many areas of that statement. So many. Yes I am to protect and help my children to the best of my God-given abilities. There are a “few” years I may sem like god to them. I teach them right from wrong. I teach them to be polite. I teach them manors. I teach them how to address people, “yes and no sir/mam.” I teach them to be honest and respectful of others and themselves. I teach them about Jesus and read His Word to them daily. I teach them to pray and pray with them daily…and when hurts and ouies happens. I teach them to go to church and how to sit still when the time comes. I teach them to be on time. I teach them to keep their word. I teach them the things of the Lord the best I can and reaffirm they belong to Jesus and they can call on Him no matter what, He is always there with them and for them. The list goes on and on in hopes I have raised and nurtured them the way the Lord desired. He only knows how many times I cried out for help and guidance, to know what to do, and I am grateful He heard me and I didn’t need to keep track of my pleading with Him for help. Did I do everything right…OH MY, I failed and floundered many times. By the grace of God we have survived thus far and have been truly blessed by life’s ups and downs, so a few things must have been don right. Thank You Jesus for all you have done and allowed in my families lives.

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Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.

You would think I would have learned to let go by now. I have two married sons, one is 33 and the other 31. I have a 3-1/2 year old grandson, by my youngest son and my daughter in law. I am also blessed with a daughter who is, almost 17. How time flies. I still get things turned around. It is not my job to KEEP them. I can still help lead them, if they ask or God instructs me to do so. Usually it’s right to intervene when I’m asked by them. But, well, I do flub up sometimes…ok, maybe a lot. Lord here I come again, take these whom you have so blessed and enriched my life, You be their guide and be their hedge and bubble (IF and When they need these), Lord, they are Yours. You can lead them and nurture them far better than I am able. They are the greatest giftYou have blessedme with….But they are still Yours and always will be.

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I look back to when they were little I tried to shelter them, help them, educate them, equip them, protect them and lead them to You. My ways were not always the best. Hinds sight is 20/20. Out of my stubbornness to do things for them and raise my children “my way”, You still were able to get in there and redirect me and my thoughts. I thank You and praise You, Jesus, without Your intervention….well I don’t want to go there. Like I said, did I make mistakes, oh my YES, tons of them. Are my kids always doing what I’d like them to? NO! BUT GOD has shown Himself to be true, just, right and gracious to me and to my children all the time. Have I been hurt as a parent? OH YES! I have felt as if I’ve had my heart wrenched from chest, BUT GOD has always meet me. He has always been there to pick up me up and the shattered pieces. At times I thought they’d never be put back, but many things have been restored better than before. That IS God. I’m still waiting for some things, that job is His. My job is to pray and trust Him. NO, I not burrying my head in the sand, if I do, God still has eyes to see. He knows how to get my attention and He can get the attention of my children.

Deut 6:6 And these words, which I command thee this day, shall be in thine heart:
7 And thou shalt teach them diligently unto thy children, and shalt talk of them when thou sittest in thine house, and when thou walkest by the way, and when thou liest down, and when thou risest up.
8 And thou shalt bind them for a sign upon thine hand, and they shall be as frontlets between thine eyes.
9 And thou shalt write them upon the posts of thy house, and on thy gates.

Yes, we protect our children, but be careful you are not pushing the hand of God from your children’s lives OR from yours. I have learned the hard way, in my protection or helping my kids kept them from learning and taking things from the  Lord and it most definitely hindered my acceptance of Gods hand in my life as well. I believe if I as parent won’t allow God to touch my childrens heart and life at a young age, it will be more difficult to experience it as they get older. I always think of Samuel, when I think of letting go of my children. Hannah let go of her son long before he was born. Samuel always belonged to the Lord and Hannah NEVER lost sight of that fact. After the age of 3-5 years, Hannah returned to Jeruselm and left Samuel with Eli. Oh my! and she knew where she was leaving him. BUT TRUST WAS IN GOD. (1 Samuel ch. 1-2) I’m sure she had hard, trying moments, she was a mom for heaven’s sake. Although commentaries vary on the weaning age of Samuel…for us it is usually 18 months to two years our babies are weaned, she still trustd the Lord for her son. I don’t believe I have ever had that kind of trust…I definitely want to know Jesus in this kind of trust. As old as my kids are, I desire that kind of trust in The Lord more than ever.

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Lord Jesus no matter how old my children are continue to teach me to surrender first myself to you and secondly my children to You.

God bless you all.

 

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