Seeking you precious prayers.

I have kept you informed with different family issues that have come put or  that are on going in past posts.

My mom went to the doctor today and was told she has a large blood clot behind her left eye (sorry–I think it’s her left eye). In one weeks time she has lost the vision and there is such pressure behind the eye she has a constant headache and pressure on the face.

She will be going to Chandler, AZ to see an optic specialist Monday morning. This is the earliest she could be see..duh silly me, it is Friday, the next business day…. I’m sure you can tell my concern…

You and many others have carried me through the past few months with the issues with my brother (hospitalized for bleeding ulcers due to alcoholism) and sister (a heart attack..called a small muscle spasm) these were on earlier post. (these 2 things took place in April of this year.) I so covet and appreciate your prayers.

Just a to let you know quickly about my folks health…About 5 years ago dad had a stroke that affected his left side of his brain. This therapy he came home with a cane and hand limitations. Four years ago, he was startled, fell, broke his hip and had a hip replacement. With therapy again was able to home with a cane and at time had to use a walker for stability. Three years ago we did not have a large physical issue, Praise You Jesus. Two years ago, dad was flown out thinking he was having a heart attack (15 years ago he did have a heart attack and then treated him with meds). but this was colon cancer, the pain mimicked heart attack symptoms. They removed a 14 inch piece of upper intestine… the type of cancer he had been treated with removing the tumor and he was fine. BUT the Lord had other plans once agin. He remained in the hospital for about 2-1/2 months due to complications and we were called 3 different times..we was not going to make it…he came through. Not with out loosing so much muscle tone and ability to get around. He went in to a rehab/therapy program because he has minimal use of hands and legs. This ordeal started the 2nd Friday in June and he went home the day before Thanksgiving. Last year in March, mom was diagnosed with COPD–she started smoking at the age of 15–also diagnosed with congestive heart failure. She went in to the hospital thinking she had pneumonia. In April she had a heart attack and had a quadruple bypass. Since then it has not been good for mom health wise. She is on oxygen most of the time and so on…. Now this issue with the blood clot has developed. My dad is nt able to travel, he is in a wheelchair and physically limited to his abilities to get around, someone needs to be with him all the time.

I would also like you to remember my brother Troy, he will be caring for my dad this time while mom and my sister are attending to this new health issue. Also, for my sister, Terry, she will be taking mom to the dr and she is still recovering from the effects of her heart attack. As for me, I am torn. I want to be there, we are going on vaction…gratefuly it is to the Phoenix, AZ area, so if I am need by my sister or mom I am still easily accessible. I feel guilty in taking our anniversary trip. (My husband and I have will been married 31 years the 31st of this month…planned to go early for other reasons…before this other took place.)

BUT GOD is oh so faithful. I felt as if I had a hug windstorm in front of me with hug plume of billowing dust. It was as if I was Israel looking back at the Egyptian arming coming to get them as they stood in front of the Red Sea. I just saw the cloud of dust…there wasn’t a Red Sea, there wasn’t a second obstacle, the dust cloud was what was so overwhelming. I just thought, “Oh Lord what are we facing now?” As I uttered those words and they were out loud, He gave me a precious verse, one that He has used for similar situations..He is so good!!!

Jeremiah 29:11
    For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

He knows! He gave hope to me! He settled the dust….It was as a dream…I watched the dust dissipate and go away. How much better can it get than to have the peace of God revealed and hope shown and set before you and it was all done through His wonderful grace by the plea He heard me speak. Our God is so gull of love and mercy.

I do not know what tomorrow will hold, let alone what is in store for next week with mom and the drs. appointment, BUT God does, that is fine with me.

This doesn’t mean I won’t have a “meltdown” in a few days, nor does it mean I will. It means, I know the Lord is good and right in all that He allows in our lives and He will continue to what is perfect in every way for my WHOLE family.

I praise the Lord for He is the one that I lean on. When I lean on Him, I learn of Him. As I lean on Him, He embraces me and reassures me. He reassured me that He is able to Whosoever concerns me and it will be all good according to his riches and glory. Thank You Jesus!!!! 🙂

Philip. 4:19 
    But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

My (our) hope revealed through His abundant grace.

NOTE: The image above  is somewhat as I felt,  it has much of the sentiment. Graphic used by permission: www.GospelGif.com. Thank you GospelGif.

What is God trying to teach me?

Where I grew up in the mountains of New Mexico. April 2010 by Candy Clonts

It has been about  three weeks since my last post and it seems as if it were longer than that.

So many things have taken place. My brother got sick  and needed to help him. I came home for a few days and tried to play catch-up at home and have some time with my family, but God had other plans down the line.  My younger sister, at 48, had a heart attack.

We live in a small, mid-size, community with a small hospital, so they air-vaced her out to a larger hospital, 2 hrs. away, driving time, one that had a cardio unit.

All first initial tests revealed shed was having a heart attack and her blood tests were continuing to elevate.

BUT GOD, had other things in store. She had an angiogram done and there was no damage to the heart, valves are working properly, and the blood flow is good. Then there was an ultrasound of other arteries throughout the body, all clear of blood clots and no thinning or other blockages. Later and echocardiogram, again everything looked good.

It was determined she had a “muscle spasm” of the heart aka “mild heart attack” and a BIG wake-up call for all of the family.

I have been home for a few days and still exhausted.

I have had to ask myself “Lord what is going on here? I know that You are in control of ALL things and I don’t question that, what is it You want me to teach me, see and learn from this? What changes do I need to make in my physical and spiritual life?” There have been other quandaries also, but….

My sister is home and recovering well. She is going to have to change diet, exercise and a few other things as with most, if not all cardio patience.

The reason this has been seemingly so hard, is that 2 years ago this June I almost lost my dad (3x in a 2 month span of time) to cancer, followed by many complications. This and other illnesses have left him in a wheelchair and dependant on others, especial my mom and sister, for many things…not everything. He was hospitalized for about 3 months. Then a year ago in March my mom was diagnosed with COPD and congestive heart failure. Following in April with a heart attack and a quadruple bypass and a 3cm aneurism in the arterial artery below her stomach… I feel I have had my share of ups and downs with “scary” family health issues. But that is not my call, nor is it within my control.

I KNOW that the Lord is wanting more of me given to Him, He desires a relationship with me and with you. Yes it has been a struggle to say the least at times, but “God is faithful”.  (Hebrews 10:23 Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is faithful that promised;)

Jeremiah 29:11 
    For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Thank You Lord, this is my hope in You. You are the One that knows what I need down to the very last detail. I am trusting You, “I have no other place to go.” (John 6:68 …Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life.)

Proverbs 6:20-23 
    My son, keep thy father’s commandment, and forsake not the law of thy mother: [21] Bind them continually upon thine heart, and tie them about thy neck. [22] When thou goest, it shall lead thee; when thou sleepest, it shall keep thee; and when thou awakest, it shall talk with thee. [23] For the commandment is a lamp; and the law is light; and reproofs of instruction are the way of life:

This is my hearts desire to know His Word, to hold on to it, believe it and obey it.

His grace is amazing and His hope is indescribable.

Thank you my Lord and Savior; Master and Creator of all things, You are the Author of my life and You write my life story and I ask you help me to live it so that it is pleasing and honoring unto You.